Category: Cosima Wagner Diaries

Change in the weather; cold. R. works; I have purchases to make in town in the morning, in the afternoon resumption of studies with Daniella. Visit from the dean, who wishes all educated persons could see our house. No reading. —

Took Lusch to a parson’s wife for sewing lessons; very nice impression, simplicity, poverty, but Goethe and Schiller and Humboldt on the bookshelves. —  My night was gloomy, I kept thinking of the term R. said to me to describe the expression which he declares is habitual to me—melancholy rapture,…

Recently we talked about the damage Bavaria has suffered in replacing its bugle calls with the Prussian ones—what is the sense of it? Our bugle calls are now as dreary as a desert, whereas formerly they were imaginatively stimulating. R. orchestrates his score; since taking the Marienbad water he is…

R. dreamed of the Olliviers, who received him with cold reserve; he addressed them in French and, gazing upon my sister’s face, suddenly recognized me in it. “Only Cosima has this expression,” he said as he woke up. — Memories of former times! “I have loved nobody except you,” R….

At 8 o’clock to church and there until almost 12; R. also comes, and all the children, including Fidi, deep emotion and awareness of the solemnity of religion and communal feeling; I think Daniella will always remember this day with emotion and exaltation. After lunch went to church again. —…

I have to write some notes about the theater for Boston; in the afternoon with Lusch to confession and absolution; R. speaks of her father and tells her he is hoping that under his protection she will prosper and become the future delight of her father. The child very moved….