Category: Cosima Wagner Diaries

R. again dreamed that I left him—he declares that the expression on my face when I said “The moon is my friend” had made him jealous and caused the dream, in which I stole away from him in fine clothes, only to be with him again, dressed in a gray…

Again a very wretched night for R., who has now been unable to work for some days. I in the morning with the children as usual. In the afternoon sent them to the Eremitage, in the evening visit from Professor Schulz, an architect from Wurzburg, who gives us some advice…

For both a very bad night; R. also dreamed that I wanted to leave him together with Fidi, and he could only resolve silently never to let me for a moment out of his sight! — He cannot work and is despondent, but always finds pleasure in Fidi, he says…

Still bad nights for R., so bad, in fact, that he cannot work much. I work with the children. At lunch the painter Krausse, who is working diligently on the sgraffito.  In the afternoon a walk with R. and the children, R. is very worn out, and he is upset…

R. again had a very bad night; the barber gave him coal-tar packs, and these irritate him; he does not work, and we visit the kindergarten, considering whether perhaps to send Friedel [Fidi] there; but we cannot bring ourselves to like it, and come to the conclusion that, excellent institution…