Category: May 1874

Daniel’s and Grandmama’s birthday, dull weather. R. dreamed about Rus, that we had taken him on our travels and he turned out to be a lion and suddenly ran down a slope with a laborer; as I was saying to R. that we could not possibly take such an animal…

“As an artist I don’t think much of the spiked helmet,” R. said yesterday to the ladies, “and yet I recognize it as our only salvation.” Today he praises the ladies highly and says he was pleased to see them kiss my hand; when I refuse on any account to…

R. dreamed again about me—that I was giving a big reception, that people were everywhere, and he could not find anywhere to change out of his indoor costume, and I kept saying to him, “But you like it like this.” — Two ladies from Strassburg visit us, friends of Malwida’s,…

R. tells me he dreamed I had told him that I had been seduced in my youth; at first he had not wanted to hear about it, but then it had preyed on him and he had tormented me to tell him about it, but I had said: “You didn’t…

Today, when I voice my concern about the very enlarged household we are now running, R. says: “Wait and see, it will all be right — for Fidi, too. I would have to be ousted by a new opera composer, meaning that my things were no longer performed, but I…

R. wanted to work today, but he had given his last page to the copyists, who are now living in the theater, and he takes a walk there. The young people are freezing, but are proud of consecrating the building! —  In the afternoon R. reminded me that I had…